YOUTUBE.

many people exploit their foolish selves on youtube. some may be funny, some serious and some just plain stupid. i prefer funny ones. some of you may know i have a youtube channel... probably not since the most views on one of my videos is barely over sixty. i hope my channel fits in the category of "funny" and/or "stupid".  i know i havent made any updates on it in awhile and that i may have promised people shout outs on it, which will happen eventually.

basically, i watched a little movie last night called "jim and mira make a porno". and, in this movie is a very serious character that works in the adult movie industry whom i totally fell in love with. what i want to do is create a character inspired by him and make my youtube channel all about him. BUT! i need help with ideas. i basically got the character down, i just need ideas for his little "show". i do have a few notes written down for a couple of videos but i always second guess myself. 

i need your ideas, so i can make this character lovable and volgur as possible. hes a gay porn star with a lot of pride of his sexuality and in the industry that he works for. he has a troubled relationship with his chilean boyfriend javier... and that all i got. can you help me?!

ITS OVER!!!

as most of you who keep up with me in real life already know i was charged with a dui last winter. my license has been suspended since my court date since march 11 or last year. well, today it has been one year and one day! meaning, i can go get my license reinstated!!! with the good friends that i have being without a license was just a bother and nothing more. with my new job and my life back things are looking up.  i plan on saving money, buying my car when the lease is up, being more social in the respects of being sober... other than the times you just got to blow off some steam and drink and dance, since there is no charge for dancing under the influence.

this may sound weird, but im glad i got the dui in the long run. who knows how many nights ive could have been drinking and driving before something more terrible than this charge could have happened. yes, i dont fit the mold of what society wants a kid from the suburbs of virginia beach to be. honestly, i dont agree with most of what society pushes on my generation. but, when it comes to others i dont want to be held responsible when it comes to creating physical pain to others... specially when theyre just an innocent citizen. yes, the dui cost me a lot of money and stress. but, money comes and goes, as well as stress.

now, that this is all behind me and my life is finally coming around i can be more focused on no and my future without any worries. first up, is signing up for an acting class. then, finding an agent. my friends and my family know how passionate i am when it comes to acting. shit, i was a proud drama geek in high school. theres nothing like escaping from your self into a character. with all this said and done... good riddance to last year. from now on... not even the sky is the limit.

and, geralds story continues...

["Man, your mom just gave me the text that you woke up. We were pretty worried about you, how are you feelings" charlie said with the same excitement as a kid opening up a present on christmas morning. Relieved to hear the raspy voice that could only belong to charlie, gerald cried out, " I don't know how am. My dad is dead. I woke up having a little brother and sister. AND! My mother looks like the old lady from the lunch room... so, tell me, how am I doing?" charlie was shocked to hear gerald speak like this about his own family. Gerald has always been the man of the family since his dad passed back in middle school. "Look man, you're gonna be home in a couple of hours and we can go over everything then. But until then, you're going to need to chill the fuck out." With that, charlie hung up the phone. ] alright, that's it for now, since im on my phone and my writers block has finally been delt with. More and more on the story to come until I hit the next block.