this cant be real.

when i got the news my knees gave out. i refused to believe it was real. when i got home the news came on and then the media said it was so. i tried to hold it in but my tears just couldnt be held back. i got ready as fast i could to run over to your parents house. the sadness to was felt before i even opened the car to door to walk up the drive way. i dreaded the look i expected on your mothers face, giving her flowers and card to show my condolences. it felt shallow because they are no words that a card can have printed in it to tell you how deep and painful of the sorrow we share. i was their a friend who lost his little brother. i was their for parents who lost there child. i was their because i lost a friend. 

i couldnt look at anyone because i knew i would break down in tears. you can tell your mother is the one who it taking it the worst. her eyes so blood shot red, how was it possible she had could cry so many tears in two days. she had finally stopped, but i knew she was hurt. how could someone do this to you?! how could anyone bring your family so much grief!??  isiah jones, i just want to you to know that you are loved and you are missed by so many. you were the only person who treated every one the same. gave them nothing but your honest personality. theres was no bullshit with you. your exterior was tough, your attitude was strong, your talent beyond amazing, but you were taken way before your time.