a.d.h.d

today, i want to be this... in less then a week i want to do that instead. i have too many unfinished projects in the making. yet, i keep adding new ones to my list. but, one thing that doesnt change is how i think everything in my social world has shifted majorly. im not quit lost. but, its like living without a spiffy gps system. the feeling of being so closed off from the world you recently raveled in has just left you exhausted. yet you crave for every opportunity to sneak out that window and run freely through it time and time again.

ladies and gentlemen, marijuana is that gps system you needed after all. and, i dont want to have to move to california to be able to feel "normal" at some level. am i a pothead? ... maybe. but, i know with its magic way of mellowing me out: i dont really give a fuck what you call me. and, i do realize the first part of my blog has nothing to do with what im saying right now. but, the title is:  a.d.h.d im going for a jog now... its sort of like an anti-depressant once you get into the flow of things. 

with all kidding aside... im going to do whatever it takes to get to california and pursue the career in which i absolutely feel i will excel in to  the marrow of my bones, i will excel. if youre reading this and have absolutely no idea what im talking about... thanks for reading anyways. little do you know what you have came across in the near[ish] future. they're people around me who are living proof that dreams are never too big to dream. a good attitude, having good people around you, knowing who your friends really are, and knowing yourself will bring you great riches... and, not always in money.